social media gah!

I really like twitter. I've been on it for years. of the social media sites it was the only one that appealed to me right away. I blog already so I took to microblogging very quickly.

since I like twitter so much, I volunteer to tweet for multiple organizations. I tweeted for socal harvest for maybe a year-and-a-half. I tweet for scdbc, and in the summer I tweet from their tourney account. when I was on space I tweeted for them, and after switching teams I now tweet for xg. and of course I tweet for algalita (I am their social media manager after all).

there is a dragon boat blog that is fairly popular. I don't know when it came about but I think I started seeing posts maybe two years ago? anyway. end of last year they did this feature on like 15 dragon boat twitter accounts you have to follow, and also 10 dragon boat instagrammers you need to follow. space was on the twitter list and xg was on the instagram list.

I couldn't help but be annoyed. space tweets very infrequently. at that time maybe once or twice a month. when I was tweeting for them it was generally twice a week. I've stuck to that same frequency now that I'm tweeting for xg. obviously, quantity and quality are not the same but I don't think my posts were worse than the ones now. and seriously, how must you follow an account that tweets only once every three weeks? one of the lesser reasons I left space was that I felt like it was super clique-y. most of the leadership was dating within the leadership and they always hung out together. and the same people being recognized over and over again. at banquets it was the same 10 people winning the same awards every year. I tweeted for them and managed their blog for many years and I don't remember being thanked for it. in fact, I remember saying how long some blog banner update thing took me only to have someone else comment that it would've taken them like a quarter of the time. ...but you didn't do anything, did you? I certainly don't volunteer for the recognition, but it is nice to be appreciated after years of effort. but I eventually quit space and completely forgot about it until they were recognized for their twitter. ugh.

anyway. I tell myself that since there are fewer db teams on instagram than on twitter, that db blog probably promoted lower quality accounts in order to get a bigger spread of teams. it just so happens that my work was again not recognized. honestly, I don't think it would bother me much except for the space issue from before which I'd completely forgotten about until this happened.

really tho, none of this stuff matters. I volunteer because I like to. I try to do a good job because that's who I am. ...turns out I'm petty too, haha!

enemies

"you have enemies? good, that means you stood up for something, sometime in your life" - winston churchill

this quotation has ALWAYS bothered me. a lot of people use this quotation as an excuse to be an ass. okay, having enemies means that you disagreed with someone. but that doesn't mean you were right. maybe you're an idiot. maybe you're on the wrong side of history. maybe you're just an asshole and you have enemies because of your personality, not because of your beliefs. and anyway, not everyone liked mother teresa and a shit ton of people revered hitler.

also, being right about something doesn't give you a pass on manners. good for you, being an animal rights activist, but you shouldn't throw paint on people. and right on, you gay rights believer, but don't beat up homophobes. there's a right and wrong way to make enemies. make sure you're making them respectfully and righteously.

nag to nothing

it's interesting how so many of us grow into our parents tho we generally swear we won't. I'm not far enough in my life to know how much of my parents I am, but I certainly am the opposite of my mom in some ways. not that it makes me a better person, and in fact, it's just as bad.

my mom nags about everything. i hate it. so now i nag about nothing. if something rip does bothers me, i'll keep quiet about it for like 8 months. then i'll say something. we'll have a conversation about it but i won't go apeshit and this conversation won't last hours. then i'll say nothing and wait for him to make adjustments, if any. if he makes none, approx 10 months later i'm breaking up with him.

it's ridiculous the lengths we go to to avoid replicating the ridiculous behavior of our parents.

lotteries

back to the powerball for a moment. i know there was a lot of "oh you're never going to win. you have a greater chance of being struck by lightening." but that's not really good thinking. i mean, no one has to get struck by lightening. but someone has to win the powerball. that's not to say that someone must win the jackpot, but a ton of people will win something. you only need to match the powerball number itself to win $4, which is the twice price of a ticket. the powerball website says you have about a one in 38 chance odds of winning that alone, which is pretty good. the odds of winning more money clearly aren't better, but payouts increase pretty dramatically. ($4, $4, $7, $7, $100, $100, $50k, $1m, grand prize)

my hope in playing the powerball a couple weeks ago wasn't so much to win the jackpot (tho I would've love to), but really, I would've been incredibly happy to just win my money back. unfortunately, I didn't win anything, haha. but I only put in $6, which I could well afford and I had fun dreaming about my winnings, which, no matter how improbable, was certainly not impossible.

the notebook

does anyone here keep a notebook? i've always always wanted to, and i've started a few times, but i have such terrible handwriting that i always stopped pretty shortly after. but this time i'm going to keep it up. i got a moleskin that i like and have already filled up a number of pages!

but like. it's just lists. lists of sculptures i like, vocab words, unusual beaches to visit, things i want to learn more about, quotations... page after page of lists. that seems weird. (tho i know, there's no right or wrong, blahblahblah. i'm just curious what other people are doing. [ps, i can't draw])

what should i be writing down in my notebook, any suggestions?

also, how should i be organizing my notebook?

ps the "best" thing i have so far are my takeaways from books / movies. a sentence or two of my impressions of the thing.

making a murderer

have you watched netflix's making a murderer yet? if not, you ought to. it'll scare the hell out of you. buting says "We could all say that we're never going to commit a crime. But we can never guarantee that someone else won't accuse us of a crime." not only that, you might be fucking convicted, innocent or not!!

I think dassey is definitely not guilty. and I think Avery is very likely not guilty. and if he did do it, I totally don't think he did it the way the prosecution said he did.

even outside of the questionable evidence, I don't think Avery did it because (as his lawyers pointed out) he had way better ways of getting rid of her body and the car. I know he's not the smartest man, but I don't think he's that stupid. 2 her blood wasn't anywhere in his room, house, garage. if he killed her, it certainly wasn't in any of those places, as the prosecution said he had. 3 why put her body in the car only to drive her to his backyard?    I do think that it's possible he killed her, tho I don't think it was premeditated. it's possible she showed up, they fought, he hit her and knew it would look bad so decided to go all the way and kill her. even so, I feel like he would know this was a big big fucking deal, given his history. so why call dassey over for the bonfire? (alibi?) but he also seemed totally normal / unstressed on those two phone calls with Jodi that night.

what I actually think happened is that someone killed her and that blank faced sheriff colborn found her car (as evidenced by his call to verify the license plate) and he and lenk decided to frame Avery. lenk found the key fob after no one else had found it in multiple searches and it had none of her dna on it, only avery's. why bother with the whole thing? they were embarrassed (to put it lightly) after the first case. maybe no one was in actual cahoots with manitowoc, but they're all law enforcement agencies. there's got to be some kind of loyalty there.

and I think no one gave a shit about dassey. he was collateral damage. but the thing that really pisses me off is that none of his appeals went thru! fine, so the county has something against him, but the state too? the fuck for? its so obvious kachinsky wasn't ever on his side and did no good for him. terrible.

regardless of what you actually think happened, I don't think you can deny that everyone should have the right to a good lawyer and a fair trial. hell, you should also get an impartial jury, honest law enforcement, unbiased judge, and more. unfortunately I don't think dassey got any of that. Avery at least had good lawyers.