right & wrong

i got an email from i-to-i (the org i did my teaching in china trip thing wit) about how thailand is desperate for english teachers. it's for an 11 month contract starting august. .. i want to go. .. i have this problem. i like to run away from things instead of confronting them head on. right now i feel like going to thailand. or really, anywhere but here. i'm tired of immature relationships and trying to keep the peace. cause really, where's my peice?

human relations are hard. today i was in a bank and there was this child. quite young. could walk but not really talk. anyway, it kept looking at me (i've heard that even children spend more time focusing on good looking things than regular or ugly things. haha). but i just wasn't in the mood to humor it. so i ignored it and kept reading. it drooled on the table. disgusting. but my book was really good. sometimes i think it would fun to just buck all conventions. do exactly as i please.

there was a studyon polite cities mentioned in the chinese edition of the current reader's digest. they went to the most populated city of many counties and did stuff, i dunno. anyway. ny is #1. bombay is #40, last. asian countries did not fair well in relation to western counties. this 'study' pisses me off. wat makes you think that you're right in your standards of politeness? in the article, they complained that in asian counties people just crowd up against you. cause asians don't care much about personal space. but westerners value their personal space and don't like it when strangers get too close. but in japan, people don't directly say no. they think that's rude. they might not like your idea but they won't tell you flat out that they think it's a bad one. and really, isn't that sorta more polite than the american sense of 'just say no'? talk about ethnocentricy...