tv rant

grey's anatomy. it's one the two tv shows i watch on a regular basis. i need to take a moment here and bitch about derek sheperd. who the F*CK does he think he is? how the hell can he be angry at meredith for sleeping wit mcvet? it's not as if he's remaining celibate himself. and he left her! he dumped her! so where does he get off in trying to control her sex life? yes, it's probably not good for her to be sleeping around like she somewat does (stds, anyone? and jesus, she's only slept wit george since he dumped her!) but wat is it to you anyway? you have no right! you f*cked her up. and no, you can't blame this on addison. yes she cheated on you wit your best friend. but it your decision to run away from her and not actually settle anything. it was your decision to pursue a relationship wit meredith. she only wanted that one night stand, remember? you chased her. and you were f*cking married! addison cheating on you does not give you the right to cheat on her. it doesn't work that way. you totally led meredith on. i doubt she would've gotten wit you had she known you were married. and i'm quite sure she wouldn't have agreed to a relationship had she known. you f*cked up. then addison comes running back to you. and you, you f*cker, you completely turn your back on meredith. so now she's suffering. and you won't let her get over you. you flirt wit her. you are her friend, in secret, cause you don't want your wife to kno about your morning bits wit the dog. she is not your pawn. you are playing them both. you have no right to expect that meredith will wait around for you. you cannot use her as you have and expect her to take it. tonight you told her that the thing between the two of you is over. but it was over as soon as you went back to addison. it was over as soon as she was crying to you, begging you to choose her, to love her, and you denied her. you say you love her? you say you don't so much wit addison? is this how you treat the ones you love? no. you don't love her. you don't want the best for her. you just want her. you just want yourself to be happy. well f*ck you, you selfish bastard, you don't deserve her. so stop f*cking hurting her.