sailing

reep and i, expectedly, are doing well. cut a peice of paper wit pinking sheers and that edge is our relationship. tonight he told me that he thinks he likes me more than before. i was suprised. would've asked 'before wat?' but he had to go. a conversation for another day i guess. but (and this will sound retardedly obvious) when we don't have problems we do fabulously well. we do actually get along quite well. we're rather similar in interests and tastes. well, no, i take that back. but we're functionally similar and similarly functional, you kno wat i mean? so when we're not fighting, we're great. and since currently we're not fighting, we're in an upswing. i hadn't known it was so high, but appt, as can be inferred from reep's comment tonight, i guess we're doing rather well. no thanks, however, to others. it seriously pisses me off that people constantly interfere. and yes, i am one to talk. when i knew of the actual situation, i stepped out. i cut him off and cut him out. when i knew that enough time had passed, i re-entered. i did, however, underestimate my womanly and wiley charms because he started liking me again. but damnit, at least i tried. i think originally i thought 'well, why should i bother to think for him? it's his relationship. he can do as he pleases.' but that's selfish. because you can never count on others to do the right thing. and because of that, if you see a situation where you can do good to change it, you should. you shouldn't depend on others (silly psychological problem, learned about that in pysch class. damn stupid followers. be a leader!) to do the right thing because they're thinking the same thing, that why don't you do the right thing instead of they! do you see the problem? idiots all around. anyway. i wish people would respect others more. would you like me to come in a ruin your relationship? no? then don't cause problems in mine. f*ck the golden rule, go silver. buddha (and confucious) said it best: do not impose on others what you yourself do not desire. word.

'your stupid face just makes me sick' / 'you think it's cool and all is fine' 'you'll never see the truth' / 'i hate the way you make me feel. i hate the way you think you're real' / 'this is my time' / 'your one voice, it destroys my one choice' / 'everything i lose is just a piece of what there is to gain' / 'i am what you will be' / 'nunca vas a ver'