we never left

you grow up judging your parents. you blame them for stuff you later realize they had no control over. as adults you start to be kind to them. you realize they are who they are in large part because of how they were raised, the social climate of the times, and the circumstances of their lives. but you still carry that judgement, and you vow that you will be different. i have the feeling tho, that when i'm 70 i'll be acting the way they do. extended shouting matches rather than my current detached silence. you can't help it, i think. in talking with friends now, we explain our current behaviors by analyzing our upbringing. it's kind of crazy how little control you have over yourself.