it's been nearly a week now and we still haven't really talked. i was upset for two days, then on saturday i was feeling kind of down cause i had an interesting day but i couldn't share it with him. yesterday and today i'm... i dunno. my friends ask if i'm okay, and i am. i think that i could really go either way on this stay together or break up issue. that sounds weird maybe, cause we've been together for 10 years (we just passed out 10 year mark a couple weeks ago) but while functional, we're clearly not a great fit. i dunno. i definitely want to resolve this but...
saturday night, i think, was the turning point. i was feeling kind of down so i went out to a special place that he and i share. and when i was there, the absolute most amazing thing happened. i mean, yes, it's natural and nothing at all magical or whatever but it was so freaking awesome. i dunno. it put me in a really happy mood and i haven't been sad since. the world is full of good stuff. and nature fucking rocks. :)
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