okay, so i don't want to sound too optimistic but i think reep and i are finally growing up. :) the other day something happened. and normally i won't call him back just to yell at him. i'm more the type to seethe within myself and then eventually get over it. but that day i didn't. i called back and told him wat was on my mind. and he said nothing. i then got really pissed and said "you have nothing to say? nothing at all? i mean, if you disagree, that's fine, but tell me that you disagree and why. and if you agree then apologize!" and he didn't say much. but the next day he apologized. really sincerely. and really completely. it was amazing.
today we were together for a little while. and i got to thinking about wat i rather consistently say to him when i'm really upset about us. and it sucks. that thing i say. it really does. and it made me feel sad. that i always say that. it's just mean. and i would hate hate hate to hear that so often. so i told him so. that i am sorry. i'm not exactly sure wat he was thinking, he didn't say, and it's not like he complained about it in the first place. but still. i feel better. and even tho it's basically true, wat i say (even tho i'm mad, i try never to say things i don't mean), i'm going to try to not say it anymore.
so anyway. this might be a turning point for us. ...who knows?
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