so we talked today. he asked me wat i wanted from him and i said. he said he would try. which is damn good to hear. he's going up north this weekend for a tekken tournament. i'm not going. which is quite sad cause just the two of us went together a few years ago. it was a good trip. but anyway. this time leo's going and driving. and since they've both made new tekken playing friends leo's car is full. wat's more, i can't get the car. originally we were thinking that maybe i'd go in leo's car wit them. but he said to sae that he didn't want me to go. this is a 'boys' trip' or something... i really do not understand single person's obesssion wit 'girls' weekend out' or 'boys' trip'. i attribute it to low self esteem and maybe a little jealousy. just can't stand to see others happy as a couple. but anyway. originally we were both pushing rather hard for me to go. but now... it seems as tho neither of us really cares anymore. i'm not having a good several weeks wit him and i'm kind of lukewarm to spending more time wit him. he is... well, probably the same thing. a few days ago he had said that he would ask his dad for the car, but today he rejected that idea. besides which, it'll be damn boring for me. will probably look back at this weekend a few weekends from now and regret not pushing for the car tho. :( but anyway... i'm just going to focus on my bday weekend wit the girls the week after and a snow board trip the weekend after that.
'nothing's what it seems' / 'finished looking for the answers now i'm looking for the questions' / 'now you’re making up for lost time' / 'and this is what i've bled'
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