Monday, July 30, 2012

poop!

this is a conversation i had with r the other week. i bolded the best parts of the conversation, hahhahha. unfortunately the graphics don't show. so be sure to type them into your own gchat. :D

me:  the "letter" he says... 
ooooh!!!!!!
~@~
HHAHAHAHA!
 r:  what the heck...
 me:  I KNOW!!!
 r:  i want to make a poop
 me:  and it GETS BETTER!!
 r:  teach me
 me:  ~ @ ~
 r:  ~@~
 me:  but all together.
hahhahah!
 r:  amazing...
this is the best day ever
me:  wait wait wait...
V.v.V
V.v.V
 r:  omg
 me:  ISN'T THAT FUCKING AMAZING?!!!
 r:  V.v.V
crap
 me:  so if you change the smilely display it sometimes changes the ...animation of hte thing
but like, the poop is always the same
 r:  V.v.V
come on, stupid crab
 me:  crab is different only in the last one. but he's amazing cause he WALKS
 r:  V.v.V
excellent
this is great
 me:  wait!!
:(:)
PIG!
:(:)
:(:)
:(:)
and... monkey!!!
wait.. i forget that one
ooh!
:(|)
:(|)
 r:  haha
 me:  :(|)
hahah, but walking crab and the poop ARE THE BEST
 r:  poop is my fav

Friday, July 27, 2012

with age...

my boyfriend has gotten pretty fat over the last ten years.. and really tan too!

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

love language

i was going thru old posts recently (bad idea it turns out), and i came across this old one about love languages. it turns out that the test link is no longer active, but i did manage to find the the test. i took the singles one.

7 Words of Affirmation
9 Quality Time
1 Receiving Gifts
9 Acts of Service
4 Physical Touch

biggest surprise is that my "physical touch" score has dropped, and quite a bit too, and so my "words or affirmation" has gone up. i definitely agree with this tho. i don't notice so much if rip and i don't hold hands or whatever. but i nearly always notice if he does (or usually doesn't) say "thank you" or "i'm sorry".

what about you; any surprises?

Saturday, July 21, 2012

polar opposites

my mom takes the metro to work everyday so she leaves her car at the park and ride in the mornings and drives back every night. early last week she went back to her car and saw a note on it. apparently it had been in a hit and run!

so shortly after she left the car, someone tried to park next her, hit the car instead, and drove away. a lady saw the incident and wrote down a partial license plate number and left a note for my mom. then she went to work and typed up a more detailed note. when she came back after work she saw that my mom's car was still there, so she went around the parking lot and found the other car, wrote down the full license plate number, make and model of the car and left this new note on my mom's car. she also left her office phone number. isn't she the coolest ever?

btw, i took the prius to two body shops and the dealer for estimates. $1600, $2k and $2600. that's a pretty big difference! the damage wasn't really that bad either i feel like. there's a scratch from the middle of the front passenger door all the way through to the back bumper. but really, it looks like all of it on the doors can be buffed out. except they did screw up the hubcap and the bumper pretty bad. my main thing tho, is why the hell is this scratch so damn long! was the driver asleep when they tried parking?! eesh. anyway. the point of my story is that the lady from the parking lot is awesome!

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Sunday, July 15, 2012

it is

rip just hung up on me. he's really uncomfortable about the guy i met in china thing. i don't blame him. but at the same time i wish he'd just... be cool. lol? i mean. nothing happened and the feelings left weeks ago.

for the last few years i've had the philosophy that if he cheats, then he does. there's nothing i can do (nor should i do) to stop it. it's his decision. i most likely wouldn't ever find out either. he goes on his trips with his friends or for work* and i don't know any of these people. so why would they tell me? i don't check up on him (read his email, or pm's, or his texts [usually!!]). so it would be up to him to let me know. i also don't ask him questions about stuff. (randomly asking if he cheated on me or whatever.) he should just tell me. and if he hasn't been telling me, he probably won't just cause i ask him about it.

rip, i guess, feels differently. he occasionally asks if i've cheated on him. which always makes me feel like i should ask back, haha. but honestly, i don't care. i do trust him. and even if i don't totally completely fully trust him, i trust him enough to believe what he tells me.

a while ago i read an article about emotional vs physical cheating. it said that men care more about physical cheating, women care about emotional. i'm still pretty much on the fence, but maybe leaning towards physical is worse. you can't help who you're attracted to. but you should know your boundaries (and those of your relationship) and not cross them. you shouldn't put yourself in a position where you may be tempted to cheat. rip, at the time, and maybe still now, cares more about physical cheating. he wouldn't tolerate me cheating on him. and i wouldn't be able to forgive him again either. if anything, him physically cheating would be worse, because i would feel like nothing's changed. i've already come to accept that in this relationship i won't ever feel like i'm enough for him. so him emotionally cheating just comes along with the territory. ...and yes, i know how that sounds.

i don't try to "get back" at him. i know that my "picking up" random people makes him uncomfortable but, since i do both girls and guys i don't really feel too bad about it. it just so happens that i've retained more of the guys than girls. i am good with strangers. esp one on one. and for many years, my best friends were guys. over the course of our relationship i've let go of many guy friends, for whatever reasons, but some of it is cause rip was my best friend before we got together and he hates every guy friend i have. the last few years tho, i stopped caring so much about his jealousy. he never took mine seriously and so i guess i'm just becoming more like him, apathetic to my significant other's reasoning*. i guess what it really comes down to is that i know me. and i trust me. even if you don't.

you can't control someone else. you can't make them feel the way you do. and i've run aground so many times in our relationship that i've just given up on it. you are who you are. and that's it.

i'd crazy appreciate if you'd decide that i'm worth you giving things up, but if don't want to, i shouldn't make you.

...i've had a weird couple of weeks i guess. having to explain my relationship to people always gets me down cause it's so damn complicated. (and no, china guy doesn't know anything, not that that even matters) and then the guy from taiwan sort of suddenly pops up in my life again and rip responds "i don't ever want to meet that guy" when i ask him if he wants to go to a party taiwan guy is throwing for a friend. ...i wish... i keep thinking about lot's wife, actually, tho i know she doesn't apply. i guess, for a long time i felt like lot, looking at my wife, wishing for anything that i could change her back to human. and i've been here for so long, just wishing, that little did i realize, but i'm turning into a pillar of salt myself.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

asking for it?


Shanghai Subway Publishes Photo Of Sexily Dressed Woman, Tells Her To Expect Sexual Harassment


this brings up the age of debate of "did she deserve it." and while i think that no person deserves to be raped, robbed, or whatever, you do have do wonder why a scantily dressed woman was walking alone in a shiesty area at night. just because others shouldn't infringe upon your rights doesn't mean that they won't. so you should really be more careful.

personally, i wear semi-sheer tops pretty frequently. tho never sheer bottoms. i do have some standards! in any case, i agree with the sentiment of the comment "Dressing like that, it would be unusual for a lady not be harassed. There can be perverts on the subway and it's hard to get rid of them. Please have self respect, ladies." while you certainly do have the right to wear whatever you want, you have to understand that dressing in a certain way will get others to treat you in a reciprocative manner (which is why we dress so nice for job interviews).

it's not to say that you should therefore only wear clothing that covers you from head to toe, but there's nothing wrong with modesty.

Friday, July 6, 2012

jiaxing

this was my first real international tournament (alcan doesn't count, cause vancouver is pretty much just like the united states.) i went with the uscdbc team as their caller and "chaperon" for lack of a better word. honestly, they didn't need any looking after, but i did a lot of headcounts and and made sure everyone had their meal tickets for every meal, lol. the "real adults" (dr. chen, mike, mary) stayed at the officials hotel while i stayed with with the team in the paddlers' hotel.
official team picture (i'm even paler than dr chen who doesn't paddle!)
wednesday night was spent in shanghai at our first banquet dinner with dr chen and assorted vips, then amy, mary and i went out walking, first to the bund then to xintiandi. the next morning, we had brunch of xiao long bao and more at a restaurant in yu yuan. (i got to tell you tho, the xiao long bao were just okay. i much prefer those at din tai fung.) the whole morning was pretty rushed, but it was nice to be able to walk around the city some more. after brunch we were whisked away by bus to jiaxing (our race city).
shitang, jiaxing
that night a few of us had to go to the captains' meeting at the officials' hotel. and goddamn that was the most boring meeting i've ever been to (kam actually fell asleep). worst yet, nearly all of it was in chinese. i actually switched seats with nick so i could translate for the new zealand team. about 1.5 hours into it, they suddenly announced that they had translators for those who couldn't understand chinese. ...um, thanks? when the four of us got back to the hotel (nick, kam, amy, me) we couldn't find the rest of the team. we figured maybe they had went out and decided to stay up to wait for them. kam fell asleep first, i about an hour later, then nick shortly after. i think amy stayed up until 3am or something. at that point nick and amy went knocking on doors, and wouldn't you know, lol, the whole team had been in one room, sleeping the whole time!
photo credit: john lian
the next morning we had to wake up early for the opening ceremony. we found out that we wouldn't get getting any real practice time, so i held the flag and mary took our spot on stage. the team went out on the water and waited and waited... turns out they only had like 15 minutes of paddling time and an hour of "sitting in the boat time." we did get a bit of practice in with the toronto team tho (with whom we did all our gendered races). (their coach blake actually recognized me from that paddler's clinic a couple years ago). that afternoon larry's cousins, who were with us pretty much the entire weekend, took us to shitang, an old town. we finally go the chance to sight-see, eat local foods, and shop. we were so lucky to have them! they even bought us dinner on friday and lunch on saturday! (we all felt pretty bad that they spent so much time and money on us. but we didn't really have anything to give in return [they wouldn't accept out money, not even cab fare]. thankfully at dinner on saturday night with the relatives, i received a number of gifts, including a set of beautifully boxed plums. we gave them a box and i gave dr chen the other. i do wish i had gotten to try a plum tho. they should've been pretty good, being in a fancy box and all. but oh well.)
2000m race that i bowed out for
race days were race days. the usual disorganization, boredom, and then intense rushing around. it rained a bit saturday, which turned everything to mud and caused some really gross bugs to come out. bleh. i can't remember how many races we did on saturday, but we did all the 200m and 500m for men's, women's, and mixed (maybe 11 races per person?) the "highlight" (if you can call it that) on saturday was the main official telling us that "no offense, but you've been here for two days, so it's your fault the translators weren't doing their job." i yelled at him. seriously. i was fucking pissed. you hired, trained, assigned these translators. it's an international tournament and your fucking rules say that everything will be announced in english. how the fuck is this our fault your staff is crap? he said something about how everyone there is a volunteer so i can't expect much. to which i replied that hey, our race is also volunteer basis and we aren't nearly as disorganized as this tourney is. anyway. i realized that this asshole wasn't about to take responsibility for anything, so i walked away from the conversation. whatever.
my favorite photo of the trip
saturday night i went out to dinner with my relatives. my great aunt, her husband, their daughter, her husband, and a bunch of other people including the former mayor of jiaxing. it was fancy. it was in a BEAUTIFUL hotel and omfg i wish i had a chance to take pictures during the day cause all my night ones didn't really turn out (it was raining and it's not a great camera and let's face it, i don't really know how to use it to full capabilities). i also had lunch with them the next day after we finished our 2000m and the awards ceremony. also fancy. and they made me eat snail. bah. a couple kids wanted to party that night so we went to a grocery store in the afternoon and bought a bunch of alcohol. dinner that night was banquet style. TONS of food. most of which did not get eaten. :( in any case, after dinner we went upstairs to pack. then we partied or should i say they partied? i, being the "chaperon", did not party. not that i would've wanted to, esp after what happened in portland! actually, to be precise, a couple of our kids partied, while the rest got scared and made sure everyone was alright. the malaysian team went nuts, and the singapore team also. i'm not terribly sure of what happened cause i left pretty early on to go ktv with toronto and harvard, who also went a little wild, lol. (i maybe should've stayed but i know i would've wanted to control the situation if i had [which was not my place to do so], so i left). ended up exploring the dark parts of the hotel and getting devoured by mosquitoes. it was an interesting night.
sunday's banquet   photo credit: lisa chou
the next morning we woke up early again and got on a bus to west lake in hangzhou. we also spent a little time shopping there after having lunch at kfc (i know. seriously. it wasn't my idea is all i can say). there was a bit of drama with that too, actually. the driver wouldn't take us shopping, when that was all the team really wanted to do. he didn't seem to understand we didn't really care to look at pagodas and stuff. so amy (who has the best chinese on the team) started yelling at him in high-pitched and fast chinese. "are you so stupid that you don't understand that all we want to do is buy souvenirs?" she's ballsy! (in case you don't know, however, yelling at people in china isn't the big deal it is over here. it's not great, but it's not horribly insulting.) we only had a couple hours there before we took the bus back to the the airport.
west lake, hangzhou
the only real downside of the trip was that it was way too short. all told, i was out of the house for about a week, but after adding travailing time, i had only about 5 days in china. the trip was pretty much all tournament, with very little time to sight-see. i'm lucky i've been to china before (and both shanghai and west lake) or i would've felt more disappointed that we didn't get much outside time. tho i still super regret not having extended my trip. bah!!
have about 30 mosquito bites, and like 20 on my right arm alone :( 
honestly, it was a great trip. the whole time, i kept thinking "i'm so lucky." and i know the whole team felt the same way. periodically someone would say "we are so spoiled." me, even more so. dr chen paid for my flight (and all other major transportation) and the city of jiaxing comped all our rooms and food. i spent ~$40 the whole week i was there (and the bulk of that went to my sim card and the kfc lunch, when mike and i treated the team). i also met my relatives, whom i've never before met, and whom showered me (well, my parents) with gifts and took me out to some of the fanciest chinese meals i've ever had. we were also so fortunate to have larry's cousins, who took us out to a place they'd just been the day before.

people kept telling me that this trip was dr chen's way of thanking me for the work i've put in for the scdbc over the years. but i'm totally blown away by his generosity (and everyone else's!). i hope i never forget how lucky i am to be a part of this sport and organization. seriously.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

portland

space dragons' roving tourney this year was to portland. this was the tournament that i'd been waiting for us to get back to. they went my first year, but since i only joined a month or two before, i didn't feel strong enough to go. and i've regretted it ever since. so why is the portland race so awesome? because it has flag catching!
our finals race, which we won!!
no, that is not me flag catching in the photo, tho i did get to do it once. and it was fucking AWESOME!!! i was really worried i would miss the flag tho. it was pretty far left as we were approaching, and i was thinking that if it came down to it, i would jump off the boat to get it. there's no way i had made my team paddle 530+ meters only for me to miss the flag. but in the last few seconds our steersman pulled thru and got me close enough to grab it. :D

i have an evil stache, btw, like v from "v for vendetta"
other than the flag catching, the portland race was pretty awesome. yes it rained, and yes there was a ton of goose poop all over the place. but the teams were all really friendly. there were four cali teams: light wave, dragon warriors, our sister team: ripple effect, and us. at some point or another, the officials screwed every one of us. guess they just don't like cali. the portland teams, however, really liked us! we were our usual obnoxious selves: mass zumba stretching, face painting, loudly singing along to every song we heard, chasing after firemen, violently playing red rover, crashing other teams' hokey pokey circles and just being noisy and stupid. it was fun!
yup, that's space for you!
best part was probably getting to hang out with the team. we went to voodoo donuts, had stumptown coffee, went to powell's bookstore, and many many bars. i stayed with jill and makiko, neither of whom i knew very well before this race. and most of the time, our team hung out in a pack, which was nice since most of them live in la so i don't get to play with them much. we also hung out a lot with our sister team, which was really great too.

all in all, a really fun trip (though i don't think we'll be going back for the tourney anytime soon because we got screwed by race officials so often) and i'm incredibly happy i went. i think next on my db tourney checklist is boracay, in the philippines. it's tropical, gorgeous, and open water!

(btw, i didn't take any of these photos. i think all of them came from james nguyen, or at least his camera)