i hate derek shephard

i hate derek shepherd from grey's anatomy. i disliked him from the beginning actually. he was just so damn pushy with meredith. it got kind of hard to watch him trying to talk her into a relationship with him.   and then we find out he's been married the whole damn time!

the worst thing was seeing how pathetic meredith became after that! SHE'S THE VICTIM TOO! i don't understand why she and addison both let derek control them. addison cheating doesn't give you to right to cheat on her. it's marriage; not tit for feaking tat. and why the hell, after derek decides to "do the right thing" and give the marriage another try, is meredith still begging him to choose her? and is this really "the right thing" anyway? yes, you are married, but you can't stand even the sight of her; so does this sound like a marriage that can be saved? especially since everyone knows, including your wife since you never let her forget it, that you're actually in love with someone else? and at every turn, he guilt trips his wife and gives puppy dog eyes to the woman he put through this whole terrible situation. addison cheated with mark but at least everyone knew she was married. so are you really any better than her?

fast forward. meredith and derek get together. and she makes a halfhearted attempted to kill herself and wouldn't you know it, but derek bails on her. yet he still claims her loves her?

and then they're together again, ish. except that now she also has mcvet. and derek is basically unwilling to fight for her. but when did he ever EVER fight for her? except for at the very beginning when he was trying to force her to date him? you know, when he was still married. but meredith still loves him!!

fast forward again to now, and now they are married and she's done this horrible thing which is still completely understandable because it was for the wife of her mentor, who happens to be the love her now dead mother's life. i mean, come on! clearly she shouldn't have done it, but you can certainly sympathize with her (though of course derek can't, or is it won't?). and so now derek is going to leave her, again.

what the fuck is wrong with derek shephard? he is the most selfish person ever! he thinks he's all loveable and kind and honorable, but he's really just a selfish man who loves the chase, bails when people need him the most, and has a whacked out moral system that he forces everyone else to abide by.

and still meredith loves him!


if it weren't for the fact that i only watch one other show (castle, which, btw, is freaking amazing, tho castle has become super-sherlock who is never ever wrong), i would've given up on grey's years ago. damn i wish pushing daisies was never cancelled...