happy 'n sappy

valentine's day was a good day. seriously. like all freakin day. :)

'you're always, always, on my mind' / 'everything i did before you, wasn't worth my while. it should've been you all the time' / 'i do anything, and everything to please you' / 'you're more than wonderful, more than amazing. you're so incredible: the irreplaceable, love, love, of my life.'

shiver me tinders!

ah the grammys... did you kno that ray charles had like 12 total in his life career and won another 8 last night? ...you kno. the guy being dead doesn't make his stuff any better. i mean, if you really liked the guy that much, why didn't you award him these grammys when he was alive? ...more strange. britney spears also won a grammy. her first, actually. best dance recording for 'toxic'. which, oddly enough, is the only song of her's i've ever liked. anyway...
also very important to the grammys, besides the music that is, is the fashion. my takes on who looks weird? usher, gwen, black eyed peas, nelly (um... we already knew you had teeth, you needn't prove it...), jack white (when the hell did he start looking so... ...freakishly feminine but masculinily weird and fucking tall? a neatly less clean shaven and more facially manly featured marilyn manson)... good god, i really can't name everyone from this slide show that looks weird. okay, you kno who looks good? beyonce, joss stone, pherrell williams, john legend, and slipknot. seriously. oh god... just thinking about the left three members of maroon5 gives me the shivers.
alright. want to see really beautiful? forbes names the world's most beautiful cars and holy shit... some of these cars... make you want to become... autosexual. that's right. autosexual. god, you kno wat i want for my bday? a trip to boston. to look at these gorgeous gorgeous cars (well... maybe not the bently blower or the mclaren). but seriously, wow.

tsunami song

okay, so this post is a little late in coming. but have you heard of the whole tsunami song controvercy? in case you haven't: for three days, a radio station in ny played this horrible song that was utterly racist and insensitive. i don't have a copy of all the lyrics, but some include: "little chinamen swept away you could hear god laughing 'swim you bitches swim'... so now you're screwed... and now the children will be sold to slavery." ...yeah... can you believe this? it's so incredible that anyone could be so fucking stupid as to 1) write the damn song 2) play the damn song 3) play it for three fucking days. i mean holy shit, it was a fucking tsunami, it wasn't thier fault. and wat's more, if you're gonna be racist at least be correct. a total of 10 chinese people died. 10, you kno why? cause it wasn't in fucking china you dumbass. it was in southeast asia. get a fucking clue and pull out a goddamn map. wat's more (and for some reason i'm thinking this dumbass was white...) more white people died in the tsunami than did chinese people. and i still don't hear god laughing. and you kno why? cause it wasn't fucking funny. it was a terrible tragedy. more people died in this incident than did in the whole of wwII. there is absolutly nothing funny about any of this. wat also pisses me off tho is that this dumbass thinks s/he can get away wit it. you think that if some natural disaster were to hit the vatican, africa, or ...isreal, there would be a song broadcast about how the catholics, black people, or jewish people deserved that? fuck no. thing is. people think they can pick on asians. but just cause we're not some huge conglomerated political force in the u.s. that hardly means we don't have any influence. and you kno wat else? wtf was that part about the kids being sold into slavery? that is probably the least funniest thing of all. all these kids lost their parents and you're laughing at that? seriously, wat the fuck is wrong wit you? god i hope this person dies a terrible and prolonged death. ...and altho it might be a bit late for this too, here's a petition to protest against the idiocy that went on that morning.

lost time.

i hate it when people seem to have an utter lack of concern for your time. i have things to do damnit. i do not like sitting around all day waiting for you. and we don't have this problem anymore - but before: i'd get there at around 2pm and sometimes end up waiting like half an hour only to have him pester me to stay for another half hour at 6pm when i needed to go home. wtf was that about? if you want to spend more time wit me, and if i only have so much time to spend, then you ought not to waste wat i have. even now tho. altho we don't have this problem so much anymore (cause now i leave late and call him about 4 times before i leave and if he isn't ready i don't leave) we have other ones concerning my time. which is fucking stupid. you have a phone, i have one too. you were awake, why didn't you call? goddamnit. you can't always fix things. do you get that you can't just show up now and make things better? do you really think that by coming now, you can make it up to me? it's too late. just like you can't unbreak someone's heart, you can't take back their disapointement. you can kiss away those tears but you can't go back and have made them never come. sometimes it's simply too late. do you get it now? you are not only reckless wit my time. but you are reckless wit my  heart.

'i'm wasting my time' / 'waiting: lonesome, lonely' / 'no more messed up reasons for me to stay' 'don't ask for more' / i've 'lost the will to do this once again'

new music

alright. still stuck on pron. been at level 63 for a damn long time now. which is stupid it has to do wit codes and i'm normally okay wit that. argh! this has been, by far, the hardest level for me. damn stupid... anyway... found this website today that has lots of new rock bands that you can listen to and sometimes dl. purevolume.com. lots and lots of bands and each lists it's genre so you don't have to listen to lots of stuff you don't like. bands i like so far? scream hello, amalgam, big 10-4, hidden in plain view, motion city soundtrack, anberlin, and satisfation (i really like 'nothing oh nothing'). and best song title evereverever? stephanie by 10 easy wishes. :) song isn't so bad either. a little frantic. but still good. see? i listen to other than mainstream so fuck you jose. ...damnit... i really don't why that stupid comment of his still bothers me as i kno he was wrong in the first place. and seriously, why do i feel the need to prove myself to him anyway? fucker.

random: in tandem

am getting so effing angry at pron! argh! already half way thru tho so maybe this crazyness will end. good god! in other completely random news... i have never ever seen ashlee simpson look decent before. so this picture comes as quite a shock. she actually looks good. amazing. incredible! stupendous!! ...i want powers like that. to be able to morph into "amazing looking woman" at a moment's notice... seriously tho. i just wish my effing pda had a little more memory. i have a palm zire that my godma gave me. it's nice. i'd link you, but they discontinued it. you kno why? no damn memory! 1.8mgs total. can't upgrade memory either. try dlling a dictionary onto that! ha! (lots of random links tonight. a few not so interesting either. just thought i'd waste your time lol...). the rock, btw, is done wit wwe and did you kno he's married? so is tom welling of smallville and from one tree hill, chad michael murry (yuck) is engaged to sophia bush (she is so gorgeous). oh and, an image puzzle for you! bleh...