am i high?

i got high last night for the first time ever. i didn't enjoy it, lol.

i had one gummy and nothing happened for like an hour, and then i realized that, hey, i totally feel the bottoms of my feet. lol, not a part of your body your normally think about. but they were really warm for a bit then i realized my whole body was pretty warm, and very small! like i had compacted from my head to feet. it felt pretty okay for a while, i mean, who doesn't like to be warm? but then the room started to tilt, and my head felt lower than my feet which is always an uncomfortable feeling. i probably should have sat up but the whole room was on an incline and i felt like i might throw up if i moved too much. felt like being drunk but with the room spinning at a much slower rate.

at about this time j joined me in bed and we talked for a good long while about what i don't totally remember and it was then that i was like, no, i don't like being high. the body stuff is sort of uncomfortable, so not enjoyable, but the brain stuff was really not my thing. j's mom had sent him some photos of his youngest brother's bday party at school so we were talking about that. i felt  sad, but also happy for him, but also kind of pissed cause i knew i wouldn't remember all this stuff the next day. i felt that this was an important conversation so i very consciously stored it in my memory, but i'm sure i missed some stuff anyway.

also, sounds were really weird too. everything was weird. everything had shrunk down a little bit and lights were too bright, and nothing existed outside our small room. cars driving past sounded a bit like waves crashing at a beach, people talking outside sounded like they were in a very old tv show, and all sounds came from 360 degrees and echoed a little. like being in a bathroom. a round one and warm one, lol.

anyway, i never thought i'd be into it, and turns out, i'm not. it's similar to being drunk but i somehow felt less in control of it. maybe cause it was my first time so i didn't even know what was going to happen. had to ask joe if i was high or not, lol. i'll probably try again later to make sure, but I probably won't be having any more of the gummies, ha.