cloudy

some 'weird' things have happened lately between me and a friend of mine. told reep about it, and he seemed okay wit the whole thing. but last night he seemed, rather suddenly, to get angry at me. i'm not exactly sure about wat either. as we were talking over the phone, he very suddenly said 'bye' and since i was so confused i let him go witout asking anything. it kept bothering me tho, so i called him a few times during the night, even left a message, but his phone was (and still is) off. i feel bad about not having resolved this last night. and in fact, the two dreams i do remember having last night, were both bad dreams involving reepal. him doing stuff and me feeling helpless. much as i do now.

a friend of mine fought wit his girlfriend a while ago. and he too wanted to resolve it that night. unfortunately that did not quite work out as planned and while the were okay wit each other, the fight was not fully concluded until the next day. he also did not have a good night's sleep.

sometimes getting mad at people makes you become selfish. you care little about how others are affected. sometimes it is even sillier because you are not really mad at this person in the first place and are just taking it out of them (much is the case wit parents and their children). i hope that the next time i get mad at someone i will remember this and do better.