not equal to

in any two person relationship it is only natural that one loves the other more than they are loved in return. in any healthy relationship the two loves are about equal anyway, so it doesn't much matter. sometimes, however, there is a great difference. and while you want to feign indifference, it's hard. but to want to be the one who loves less means that really, you think you deserve to be the more loved; you believe that you are the more lovable of the two. i don't have nearly as many faults as you do, you think unconsciously, so why do you love me less? you give away a part of yourself when you love. and that someone should at least be willing to match your sacrifice, no?
right now i love reep more than he loves me. and think, actually, it's quite a bit more. more than, in any case, i am comfortable wit. i think normally i would then try to love him less. not, like, focus on his faults or mistakes. but just try to be more distant. but now i'm troubled by my earlier thoughts of being entitled to love. so wat to do now? i suppose i could con him, somehow, into loving me more. be a better girlfriend, be more attentive, and the love will follow. but i'd also have to keep in mind that i'm just playing a part. once i'm sure he loves me more than i love him, i need to be careful not to fall into the trap of loving him even more, being that now he is being (in response to me) more loving, therefore more lovable. but besides the complications, even more to the point, this is rather cruel. and not at all wat love should be like.
but really, love should not be like any of this at all. i should love him regardless of how much he loves me. and in no way should i try to love him less. this is no contest. and if it were, wouldn't we both then be losing? so how then? how do you content yourself wit being the lesser loved?