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oish, i guess i didn't make this clear but that last post. the last bit about running out of time. i didn't mean it in the sense of like... getting married or watever. i just meant how in general time is running out. our rents are getting older and most of us are still sorta figuring out wat they want wit their lives. i mean. i kno that we are still young but seriously... i'm really starting to feel the pressure of having to finally 'grow up' and i'm not even out of college yet. our whole lives we sort of keep looking forward to something. some benchmark. some coming of age thing. it never really seems real tho. as if it'll never really happen. next year, graduating college? that doesn't even really seem real to me. thinking about getting a real job. starting my retirement fund. really moving out. having my parents retire then eventually die... i mean... is that all really gonna happen? i kno that it is, but i just can't feel that it will. this growing up stuff, it's scary.