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oy. yesterday was rather... tumultuous for reepal and me. i had come to a conclusion of sorts the night before and had written some things down. two main points. after work he came over and we went thru my list. we didn't really settle anything tho. later he came up to eat dinner. after that he wanted to cuddle, but i really really wasn't in the mood. it felt like... he was trying to make me forget about our problems. 'see how well we fit?' anyway. i got really antsy and left the room for a bit. came back and was like 'if you're not gonna do your hw then i think you should go home.' he opted to go home. then i couldn't get my shoes on and couldn't find my keys and he said that he'd just walk back to his car and basically left. i threw my purse at the wall. there are dents. i then called ting and calmed down a bit. decided to go to 'our' beach. got to my car, drove down the hill, passed reepal walking, floored the accelerator, got to the freeway and missed the exit. ...wondered where to go. la? san fran? joshua tree? sd? remembered that the next day was trash day so decided to go home. then decided to just stay the night there. bah. anyway. reepal calls after midnight sometime to see if i'm 'okay' ... ting also called. to see if i was okay. damn do i love that girl. long story short. we still haven't conclusively settled anything. but reepal said that he'd do better. i'm hoping so.