dis-heartened

remember how i had that tiffany's update on my snapshots site a while ago? well i actually found that heart necklace on ebay. the starting bid was at $99 but it did come without the chain... i still wanted it pretty badly tho. i actualy first saw that necklace two valentine's days ago in an instyle magazine and wanted it then. but it was $400! then i see it on ebay for a fraction of that price. so i'm thinking i just gotta bid. so today i decided that the most i would pay for it was $126.89 which really, isn't that much when compared to it's retail price. reepal was over at the time. and he was super nice. he even wanted to put in some money for me (he actually insisted!). but i decided, no, because even tho i really love it... it's just... not necessary, you kno? anyway, i lost the bid. i was actually pretty upset. i even cried a little. (yes i'm on my period, lol) but i just... i mean i won't come across a deal like this ever again and so i'm really sad to be losing out. but at the same time... paying over $100 on a 'fun' purchase when i don't have a job... that's just irresponsible. and i kno reepal offered to put in money for it. he even offered like $100 which totally would've gotten me the necklace. but at the same time... so anyway. i'm a little heart broken. :( but it's okay. i do like another necklace (way cheaper) so if i ever see that on ebay i'll snap it up witout feeling bad.