sedate

so we ended up talking for a bit last night and settled a few things. it's weird how reluctant we are to talk about things. and yet as soon as we do, things are better! how's that for weird? anyway. so i guess my more basic fears of him and vegas are alleviated. altho serioulsy, sometimes you just wanna hear the words you kno? hey, did you kno he was planning on going back to dragon boating again? he didn't go last year cause he did baseball instead. i gotta admit, i'm a bit apprehensive about him going. wat wit al2 and all. ...i never did really talk about wat happend at the last db comp did i? well, in short: it sucked. for many many reasons. one of which was cause reep was there. ...wait, did you just say your day sucked cause your boif was there? yeah, that is wat i said. i can very easily ignore things that aren't there. but when that shit is right there under your nose, well, it's hard to pretend it aint there. so a few sundays ago at the db comp i saw wat i've been trying to ignore all this time: actual interaction between reep and al2. and now he's planning to come to db practices every sunday. um yeah, how is this supposed to work exactly? damn if i kno. i keep hoping that i'll just get over it. that i'll wake up one day and feel differently. and yeah, i kno how lame that sounds. and don't worry, i don't believe it either. so wat are you doing exactly? um... nothing. isn't it obvious? ...well that sounds like a good plan. thanks, i think so too. ...wtf mate?

'let’s talk about no one, please talk about no one, someone, anyone' 'let’s talk about nothing' / 'you and me have a disease, you affect me, you infect me, i’m afflicted, you’re addicted' / 'stop me before i do it again' 'hope i don’t break down'