it's a gamble

i think maybe reep read this site. the last week or so he's not told me to 'sh'. well good. i'm sorry tho that i had to resort to this site to let you kno. sometimes it feels as tho you don't listen to me talk. at any rate. this post tonight isn't about me (yes, i feel your pain, i kno you're disapointed but please step away from that ledge). was talking to reep tonight about some girl who has a dumbass boif that we think she should break up wit (hello, i already said this post wasn't about me!). i said something that i thought was really rather perceptive (isn't it funny how sometimes you say really smart things witout thinking? or no, maybe that's just me. cause i'm so smart anyway that even i sometimes fail to realize the full extent of my genius.): that she doesn't break up wit him because she loves him. and when you love someone you end up suffering a lot. but all the while you're thinking that this suffering will somehow pay off in the end. and the more you suffer, the greater your reward will be. so you stay in this bad relationship because you keep thinking that things will turn around. however, life doesn't work this way, and you just end up wasting your time in a godawful relationship. it's kind of like gambling. you're already down a grand but keep expecting to hit a lucky streak. but why? fate owes you nothing. just cause you tossed 10 tails in a row does not mean that the next toss will turn up heads. each event is individual to itself. your loser girlfriend will not suddenly realize that wow, i have been a terrible girlfriend and please let me make it up to you by giving you oral sex whenever you want it. you may feel as if you deserve the change of wind, but you most likely won't be getting it.

'when i look into your eyes there's nothing… but my own mistakes staring back at me' / 'this is the last smile that i'll fake for the sake of being wit you' & 'this is the last time i'll take the blame for the sake of being wit you' / 'everything has to falls apart' 'everything has to end'