so reep left today. i'm actually kind of relieved i didn't go. i doubt we would have had a good time wit each other. we have definitly not been getting along lately. when we are out we constantly say things that piss each other off. every 10 minutes we have an uncomfortalbe moment. ...you kno wat's really sad tho? when we're happy together, all i have to do is simply think 'i love you'. and i get happy. and i only need to say myself 'i love you'. to get this stupid little smile. but now. that we're not in that happy place. even him saying it to me gets nothing. i normally really love saying it to him. i actually get pleasure out of telling him that i love him. how weird is that? but now... i hear it and i say it back. because i kno i do, even if i'm not totally feeling it.
'if i had known back then whatever i know now, i'd think i’d have answers but i don’t know why' / 'quietly thinking to myself: this sad exchange pleased neither one of us.' 'so we finally gave up' / 'don't tell me what i’m trying to say to you'
'no talking when i want you to listen'
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