Tuesday, July 20, 2004

all's fair...

to me, the controversy over 'who should pay' has never been an issue. i like to pay. i like that i am capable of treating my boif to a movie or to dinner or to watever. why should he sacrifice his hard earned money to treat me nice and get nothing in return? this financial equality also extends past just this however. neither of us will ever feel resentment over paying for something we didn't want to do. for instance. i really wanted to go to the lb aqarium. reep didn't want to go. but he was gracious enough to go and keep me company. now, if i had then made him pay for the tickets, i'm sure he would have been quite annoyed, and justifiably so. why should he have to pay to go see something he didn't want to go see in the first place, esp when i have am entirely able to pay! now in relation to the article: lots of people feel pressured to go on dates they don't want to, but they go, cause they're nice or bored or watever. and because of this, whoever asks for the first date ought to pay for that first date. and i say this knowing that i've asked out a guy before, so i'm not being manipulative. then, on the second date, the other person ought to pay. from then on, make it comparable in the amount each person pays so that you're always about even. that's wat reep and i do. sorta. mainly, it's whomever it's most convinient for, that's who pays. so if reep has more cash, he pays. course, i try to keep things around even and i always pay when we're doing something he didn't want to do and i'm pretty sure he does the same. (...i better have not paid for that stupid 'freddie vs jason' movie...) and as for not paying when you kno there's not going to be a second date? watever. i think it's that person's responsibility. you ask someone out: you pay. it's that simple. someone asks you out: you have no obligations towards that person. you don't have to accept, pay, make sure they have a good time, or promise them that second date. that's a chance they take when they ask you out. therefore, if some girl/guy sends you an invoice for a date because you didn't promise them a second one, you can tell them to shove off, courtesy of me.

Saturday, July 17, 2004

belly belly

ever finish a big meal, raise your shirt a little, rest your hand on your tight little tummy, rub it like you're wishing for luck, sit back, melt your eyes shut, grin and purr? i love that. complete satisfaction in your slight bulge of a belly. course, then reality hits and you're suddenly disgusted wit your ever enlargening distension of fat. grr... i myself am torn wit the way i ought to feel about my pooch. i like my tummy. soft, a little squishy, and a bit round. when i watch tv i usually sit there wit my hand resting on my tummy. i like it there. it's warm, cozy, and comfortable. but i also hate it. i hate how when i stand there looking at myself in the mirror there is a bulge interrupting my perfect line of stomache. i hate how i sometimes ooze over the top of my pants. it's gross and i hate it. but then i sit back, settle my palm on my tummy, close my eyes, and wait for that glow of self satisfaction to come gliding over me. ::purr::

Friday, July 16, 2004

legs

was at db pool pratice today (btw, got thrown into the pool. argh...) and noticed that some girl there has body type like me! very thin on top and shortish stumpish legs. would think that thin little twiggy arms would translate to thin little twiggy legs, but no! seems as tho tall females always have long legs too. and these long legs of theirs are always thin. so one would imagine then that a short female might also have proportionally long legs, but that's not always so! if this woman is white, she might have thinish legs still. not quite as slim, but still nice and reasonable. but asians seem only to have thick 'athletic' legs. bah. so not only are asains almost never blessed wit having nice long legs, they're usually stumpy too! :(

Tuesday, July 6, 2004

love of money?

was watching 'for love or money II' finale tonight. boy picked nice girl over bitch girl. girl picked boy over money of potentially one million dollars. then boy picked girl over check valued at a known one million dollars. told reepal. he said that the guy was stupid. i asked him wat he would do. pick me or $1m? he said that it was really close. i assured him that i would not be hurt if he picked the money. i just wanted to kno wat he would do. he refused to answer and almost demanded that i stop asking him about it. ::raise eyebrow:: but enough about him. wat would i do? ...was thinking that if i was the guy on tv. i would have only picked the girl and not the money if i felt she was 'the one.' the money is definitly long term. and i wouldn't give up that garentee for some thing that could be long term but that is more likely a short term thing. but then and again. i don't believe in 'the one.' so how much would i have to like the girl to pick her over the money? as much as i like reepal? ...and you kno wat? it is really close. i mean... financially i'm fine. i don't need the money (but damn do i want it). and so of course i would pick reep. but that's selfish. wit the million, i could pay for my education myself. my dad could retire. and my mom wouldn't have to pretend to be so interested in going back to work. and just... it would make their lives so much easier. the whole rest of their lives so much better. but reep. i mean, he's...... see wat i mean? i don't kno. i think... i think i'd pick reep. but that's assuming that i was in the guy's position. if i'm the girl, it's a bit more complicated. let's say i do pick reep. now it's his turn. wat if he doesn't pick me back? so not only do i lose the guy, but i also lose the money. and really, reep needs the money more than i do. and so i'm back here again: wondering wat he would pick. cause if i'm the girl, i have so much more to lose and... if he's going to screw me. then i'd much rather screw him first. right? i don't kno either... problem is, i do love him. a lot. so maybe i'd pick him. and urge him to take the money. cause he needs it more than i do. and cause he needs it more than he needs me. ...you kno wat? yeah. that's the one. in either case, i'd pick reep. and in either case, i'd hope he'd pick the money... ...yeah, that's the one. cause he's... well, you kno. :)

homework: ask you significant other wat they would do